Poetry from the Deep

Rožnati Zaliv

2011-12-11T15:01:00.001-08:00

Ob obali se nahaja
tik nad gladino,
nežno prelivajoča se
modrina.

On utrujen se sprehaja
muči um silno,
ona že spi, otroci
so fino.

Programmer's flow

2011-11-04T17:03:00.000-07:00

To design or not to design
let mind flow do the work flow

think and do
have passion for knowledge
and no fear of unknown.

Well, for the last one, can't say it for myself any more. Since I decided to "conquer" F#, I have a feeling that just maybe, my mind was not meant to be bended like that :P, well, at least passion is still present - for knowledge, and other things as well.

... unreal mistakes in design of things are, in fact, welcome.

Come and make me smile

2011-10-09T15:31:00.000-07:00

take off your cloths
and let them slip away
not the only thing here
that's wet
feel fingers through hair
feel
there is nothing to forget
but skin.

i am realy sorry sometimes i am such a dick.

2011-03-10T00:29:00.001-08:00

šoja zamorjena

a kljuvaš deblo informatike

al nisi sita hroščev črvov

ter ostalega šestonogja

mar apetit poganja tvoje

korenine

tja daječ proč

od mohga prjatua Preše

2010-10-12T15:16:00.001-07:00

Večina mojega življenja ni resnična.

Nje ni vedno z njim

2010-10-12T15:14:00.000-07:00

solze stekajo se v ocean,
nebo mu ne pomeni nič,
če je ni,
zvezde z neba ne svetijo.

bolj kot išče razlog
bolj čuti
da nori.

ker če je ni potem tud' njega ni

sivo nebo vidi črno.

če je ni
ne pomeni nič mu nič.

ker hoče biti tam kjer je in ker noče biti razvalina,
želi njeni toplini biti simpatija.

colors of mood

2010-10-12T14:20:00.001-07:00

red
white
and
blue

Bivša

2010-08-01T15:55:00.000-07:00

Nočem bit nesramen,
ne zajedljiv,
kot ona,
vendar nima drugega obraza,
kot tega,
ki ga skriva za fasado
umetnih laži.

ne morem

izgovoriti,

kako mi je žal,

ne maram,

je kot mame

najinega sina.

Zakaj v večeru

2010-07-13T18:58:00.000-07:00

||:
pogled mu nate
skoz' solze slane
upanje in rosno jutro prebudi.

oprosti mu, ljubezen moja

mar ne ljubi te dovolj ?
kajti ne zmore dat' ti vsega
kar želel bi, da bi 'mela.

Duši ni nikoli dovolj.
Zato on vedno, vsakič znova
kot sonce v večeru umira
:||

in ti ...

2010-06-24T20:25:00.000-07:00

Oj...
Mar mislis da ne vidim
ljubezni tvoje zaigrane
mar ne vidis da zelim
samo si tebe ?
ka(r)(j) slisim(,) ?
ljubezni neiskrene
več ne potrebujem
naj skrije se v nič.
tudi miloščine ne
al me hočeš al me ne.
al me hočeš al me ne.

prodiram vate,
mar ne čutiš kako z brazdami posula si moje oko ?
daj nameni mi orgazem
deklica moja
mar videla nisi,
kakšne sinove, princeso imava...

oprosti mi da ne ostajam,
ko te želim objeti, te ni,
al' sem predaleč,
dlje kot sonce od tebe
al' nimam dne,
ne želim, da bi se ne trudil
četudi ostanem dlje
raje umrem,
kot da te zadenem v srce.

Zvezde

2010-06-06T14:36:00.000-07:00

rad bi te prijel za roko
ti pokazal nebo, ki ni črno,
modro je, vidiš
kako globoka modrina sije skozi modrino v globine,
povsod,

kamor koli pogledaš, vidiš (zvezde)
kot luči, ki sijejo skozi,
ni črne, vidiš (zvezde)
svetijo, sijejo, skozi,
kjerkoli, vidiš
kako veter vrtinči oblake,
nad nama.
vidiš,
Kako vrti se življenje in šviga mimo oblakov.

Tako srečen sem, da lahko
vidim to čudovito magijo,
to krasno lepoto sveta.

pred nama.
vse kar sem videl,
in videl sem mnogo,
a nič tako lepega,
vsaj ne tako lepo,
kot lepo vidiš lepo ti.

A tribute to Miles Davis

2009-11-09T15:56:00.001-08:00

An aquaintance, well known figure tried to look smart and important,
picking me constantly, then he asked me:
"...but, do you realy know who Miles is ?"
i looked at him, then gazed toward the stars,
and thoughts got warm, i smiled and said:

I don't know much about his music,
nor can i play it so,
but i do know,
he sometimes made me sad,
wanting me face eternity,
sometimes I cried,
in shear intense of clarity
his sound, fulfiled,
made me alive,
to tell a story full of life,
imagine,
he managed to explain me in music
his dream from last night,
The man with the horn made me scream,
of happiness and joy,
sometimes I jumped,
to follow sorcerer's enchanted rhythm
hands claped,
just to get the feel of mystery,
...
then I turned to him with tears in my eyes.
"i don't realy know who the man was,", but he still continued
"Can you recall any of his melodies ?"
"Do you ?" i mourned and walked away.

The master. Thanks.

MARCUS MILLER bas, bas klarinet, CHRISTIAN SCOTT trobenta, ALEX HAN saksofon, FEDERICO GONZALES PENA klaviature, RONALD BRUNER bobni,
Ljubljana Kino Šiška, 9.11.2009

Poslednjič ljubi on nazaj

2009-07-26T23:35:00.000-07:00

Nočem več se igrati te igre, razočaranje ni njen pomen,
odstrani igle jim iz oči,
daj dovoli jim, naj jočejo.

Sprijazni se, nje slik pač ne razumeš.
Skrivnost je v tem, da si odslužen.

Aaa,
a nisi ti nepremagljiv ?
a ni tvoj smeh neposmehljiv ?
pogled tvoj hladen, zajedvljiv ?

Mar se bojiš vizije nje brez tebe ?

Ali samo se skrivaš v bedi, ko te osamljenost lovi ?
Veš... brez nje, srce prehitro okameni.

Bolečina žge,
oči pečejo,
solze več ne tečejo.

Inverz neskončnosti

2009-07-21T23:06:00.000-07:00

imel sem ljubezni,
takrat, ko nisem imel nje,
sedaj ljubezen do nje,
pomeni mi vse.

Poulični pevec

2009-05-07T06:55:00.000-07:00

V mnogih je stvareh zablodil
a takrat ko ne,
s tabo v mislih blodi.

Mnogo je poti prehodil,
a takrat ko odhaja,
ve da ne gre,
le po daljši poti nazaj k tebi hiti.

Mnogo sanj je že pozabil,
a medtem ko spi,
sanja,
da se s tabo v rosno jutro prebudi.

Odpluj mi v luč, prijatelj stari

2009-03-14T15:16:00.000-07:00

življenje se spreminja, potihem se v prah spreminja.
misel mi s prijatelji izginja.

Ni izhoda, nihče ti ne pove, kaj pomembno je, kaj ne.
Ni pomena, da se trudiš, vse je šala, razveseli se.

Vse najboljše, predno se z usodo spogledaš,
predno se še zadnjič v ogenj zagledaš.

Prebediva še to noč. Pojdiva plesat v temo.
Jutri si oddahneš !

Iz objema smrti v ples življenja mi zapluj.
z zadnjim dihom proti luči s polnimi jadri pluj.

"O tema, prijateljica, k tebi prihajam.
neustavljivo od tu, v senco odhajam."

Sanjač sem bil kot ti, ti postal si sanje,
jaz pa tu stojim in čakam tujca, da tvoje ime v kamen vklesa,
da vržem rožo in se poslovim od tvojega srca.

Dajo, prijatelj dragi, ta je zate.
Počivaj v miru.
Se vidimo.
20.3.2009

A bi rad še kaj povedal ?

2009-01-24T04:17:00.000-08:00

edino kar imam, edino kar želim
je da vidim kako odraščajo ljudje,
da se okrepčam,
da se ne sladkam...
ampak post življenja mi ne da,
razumeti da kolegica mi ne da,
fukat s kurcem do neba,
čeprav si to žele,
čeprav si to hote,
in tisto v glavi,
jim ne da,
da bi razumele,
od starosti veze,
da od miškota,
zrela je lepota,
le zakaj se ti poklanjam
misliš da od spoštovanja ?

prijatli, vam nikoli ne spovem dovolj.
nikoli, da je ona tista,
ki mi v srcu zaigra,
prekleta, da me strela udari.
usoda kruta je prišla,
me vzela,
iztrgala,
iz objema,
svetega.
me kot cvet odtrgala,

In brat moj,
od matere odvzet,
kako dovolil si,
da sprovedem to bolezen,
večno kot ljubezen,
kako si vedel ?
da ne bom uspel,
s teboj v ta trenutek bom ujel,
preprost trenutek njenega pogleda.
ta moment je bistvo njenega izgleda.

al jo izpolnjujem,
to ne vem,
a če rečeš mi,
da ljubiš me,
ti zaupam,
in zavedno si želim
da vračam ti ljubezen, večno,
oprosti...
da izkoriščam te.
vem pa to, ker daješ mi,
daješ mi pač to kar si.
in to kar si,
to si pač ti,
in to kar si,
si pač to ti.
o hvala ti,
da sem kar si,
da sem kar si,
pač to si ti.

Ko si mi strga,
komaj čakam,
da te vidim golo,
da te vidim takšno.
da se strga mi...

čeprav besed,
ki opisale bi,
to kar si,
kako te ljubim,
da nesmrtost dal bi zate,
o ti angel moj lepote.
ni.

veš da bi umrl zate ?
veš ?
da ljubezen,
ki mi je mi edina,
verjetnost da si konkubina,
nikoli ne odtehta,
moje sle po tebi.

Ničesar nimam več,
moj mladostni meč,
odšel je v sončni svet,
v ničemer več ne vidim red.

Izbrisal bi te iz spomina,
za zmeraj ubil te,
samo da bi mi ne izazvenela,
ta tvoja ljubezen,
topla, vroča kri,
monumentalno v trenutku ujeta,
s kurcem mastnim
v oko zadeta...

Mladost

2009-01-24T04:09:00.000-08:00

Mislil sem da imam že vse,
na steni napise, v žepu cigarete.
misli ne zlobne,
pač pa naivne.

Bil je čas, ko nisem vedel,
kaj pomeni to imeti,
kaj verjeti,
kaj doumeti.
Nisem vedel niti,
Kaj pomeni si te vzeti.

bil je čas, ko sem vseveden,
prav vsak dan,
bil nezaveden,
medtem ko znano sem iskal.

Ničesar več ne potrebuje

2009-01-23T17:59:00.000-08:00

V spanju slišal se je govoriti,
a resnica laže,
v bistvu ga še bolj boli.
da ni on tam,
kjer hodiš ti.

Veš kaj si je želel ?

Da postelji njegovi njegov angel spi,
čeprav boji se,
da ga izgubi,
saj pritiske duše pogubljene,
edino on lahko vzdrži.

Veš kaj si zdaj želi ?

Danes več ničesar,
ko misli, je,
in vse kar mu je pomembno,
je to, da si.

Proti resnici

2008-12-29T04:14:00.000-08:00

Včasih Usodo
težko je doumeti,
a vse bolj se mi zdi,
da uvidel sem,
kam se ta moj
mali svet vrti.

Včasih nisem vedel,
koliko sem živ,
danes vem,
da že jutri grem.

bolj ko se resnici približujem
ničesar več ne obžalujem.

Truth

2008-12-08T16:32:00.000-08:00

I miss you
when you go
to another room

Naj povem še to, da

2008-08-05T04:18:00.000-07:00

ko odidem,
ne žaluj.
izbriši me,
pozabi,
ne objukuj.

Vsaj poiskusi,
najti znova srečo...
črni panter moj.

Vprašanje

2008-07-14T15:21:00.000-07:00

V temni noči,
Ob hitri cesti,
z mrzlim vetrom v laseh.
pil sem da pozabim,
spomine zadnjih let.
V glavi me piga,
pogled megli.
Neznanca pred mano sem slišal mrmrati
pada, v pekel ali letim v nebesa ?

končati na komodi

2008-07-14T15:16:00.000-07:00

Na obisku gledam sliko v okvirju.
Smrtnik.Beda.
Preživetje.
Čas obeda.
Golobica,
gabi se mi skleda.

se skriva

2008-06-09T02:56:00.000-07:00

V jutru ... nov dan.
v spočetju ... življenje,
v smrti ... odrešenje.
V soju lune božanski plan ?

Vsi mi,
odhajamo v neskončno,
vi ostajate, upam da pokončno.

Tokrat ne pojdeš z menoj

2008-06-09T02:24:00.000-07:00

Naj mi povejo
Zakaj se mi rosijo oči,
Kadar koli pogledam drugam,
Vidim, da se jočem zaman.

Jočem, a ne za seboj,
za nerojenimi sinovi in za teboj,
ljubezen.
MOLČI !
Tokrat ne pojdeš z menoj.

Počitnice

2008-05-29T02:36:00.000-07:00

Na belem pesku ležim
napol v sanjah mižim
od daleč slišim glasove,
bučne in tuje.

V glavi tisoč let norim
v sanjah za teboj letim.

Ko bil sem še nov,
gnetel sem svojo snov,
Pisal pesmi
V besedi resni,
bal se, da te izgubim,
Risal sem,
Kričal,
da te nazaj dobim.

Črni angel moj

2008-05-29T02:34:00.001-07:00

Ne dovoli, da te ljubim
Črni angel moj,
ko te snubim,
ko te ljubim,
ne prikimaj,
skrij obraz si svoj,
raje ubeži mi s pogledom,
izperi vonj si moj.

Do takrat

2008-05-29T02:31:00.000-07:00

ko boš izvedela za poezijo,
za menoj jokala boš,
Tenor zasedbo dala boš,
Če bi znal povedat ti,
da joči,
mar solzo zame potočila bi ?
zanj mogoče ?
a zase bi ?

Predikat

2008-05-29T02:27:00.001-07:00

To ni laž,
Če ni resnica,
smrt je sredina in ni krivica.

Če ni laž,
In ni resnica,
je sredina smrt ali krivica ?

Komu verjeti

2008-05-29T02:24:00.000-07:00

Zlodej, daj povej,
naj prisluhnem tebi ali njej ?

Raj

2008-05-29T02:11:00.000-07:00

V besedah razdvojen,
v resnici povzdigovan,
v mislih razsekan.
v lažeh razklan.

Pobega v drugo ni,
v tist začaran odrešitve kraj,
oddaljen,
na tisoč kosov razdrobljeni,
v tisoč miljah izgubljeni raj.

Kaj še...

2008-05-29T02:08:00.000-07:00

Bolj kot me je strah umreti,
je svojih sanj ne izživeti,
kolesja sreče ne vrteti,
ugank življenja ne doumeti,
ljubezni tvoje ne imeti,
svojih otrok ne razumeti.

Prehitro

2008-05-29T00:40:00.000-07:00

Hodim po mestu s tresočimi rokami,
odhajam, a bi rad še ostal.

Razmišljam, a časa več nimam,
rad bi povedal, da te ljubim in da ne bi rad spal.

Prosim ne joči, prosim oprosti,
rad videl bi zvezdo s soncem sijati.
poslušal bi smeh v iskrivih očeh,
se radostil, se veselil.

Poslušam, v času odmev,
hvaljena, da si z menoj.

Odhajam, v šum vetra.
ostal bi rad tukaj, s teboj.

Cikel

2008-05-05T05:46:00.000-07:00

A se bova igrala ?
Joj, sine, nimam časa.
A bosta ostala ?
Ne sine, nimava časa.
...
...
Sine, a se bova igrala ?
Ne, oče, nimam časa.
A bosta ostala ?
Ne oče, nimava časa.

Še dobro da

2008-05-04T02:47:00.000-07:00

odšla si,
te v glavi,
v mislih,
v srcu več ni.

Tam se v megli na vlažnem dnu,
skrivajo želje prodane zlu,
po temnem angelu hrepenim,
z njo divje noči prebedeti želim,
z njo se v jutru zbuditi želim.

(Pravijo, da je vsaka izgubljena veza dobra)

Kako do nje ?

2008-05-04T02:44:00.000-07:00

Tudi če skočim,
do nje brez kril ne priletim.

(Nimam kril. Obstaja dvom, a bi me videla, četudi bi jih imel)

Skoraj

2008-05-04T02:42:00.000-07:00

Včeraj sem te zopet videl,
se skoraj vate zaletel,
te poljubil in objel,
te v hipu vzel.
Včeraj,
sem te skoraj,
skoraj res imel.

(res je čisto malo manjkalo)

Angel angelu hudič

2008-05-04T02:30:00.001-07:00

Zate si krila angela odrežem,
neskončne žile porežem,
zvezdne oči iztaknem,
če s tem solze tvoje odplaknem.
A se te potem lahko dotaknem ?

(Zate bi vse naredil, samo ne joči, ok ?)

Obup

2008-05-04T02:24:00.001-07:00

Včeraj sem zagledal se v tvoje lepe oči.
Danes gledam kako strmijo in nemo trpijo,
za jutri zaman se solzijo.
Izgubljeno nazaj nikdar ne dobijo.

(Enkrat ti bom povedal, da je iskanje ljubezni zaman)

Hej

2008-05-04T02:23:00.000-07:00

Prihajam,
zaplešem za trenutek,
otipam za osnutek.
v redu, dobro,
danes bom ljubimec tvoj.
...
Včeraj nisem bil čisto svoj
Danes se ti pokažem še
V luči temne,
v podobi grozljive mačehe.
...
Jutri pridem spet,
Za slo v meni,
korenino v tebi,
tvegal bom.

Neverjetno

2008-03-16T12:21:00.000-07:00

Ko te ob meni ni,
kot da se vse podira,
se mi zdi,
kot da se vse negira.
tako čas stoji.

(Ne morem se navadit na to, da greš)

Ljubim ljubezen ljubeznive

2008-02-20T13:35:00.000-08:00

ljubezni izgubljene.
preproste in nedovoljene.
ljubim ljubezni ljubeznive.
igrive in nepotešljive.

ljubim tvojo, ko se ljubi z mojo.
ljubim mojo, ko se ljubi s tvojo.

Igram se z njo, Igra se s tabo,
Igraš se s mano, Igram se z njo.

Ljubim od blizu in od daleč.
Ko sem na poti, sem že notri.
In ko odhajam, že v mislih prihajam.

In potem

2008-02-20T12:58:00.000-08:00

Zavest več ne obstaja, nihče je ne razume.
Telo bolezen mi razkraja, nihče zdravila ne doume.

Ne mislim več, ker sem pohabljen.
Ne sanjam več, ko sem osamljen.

Ne bijem bitk več pogubljenih.
Ne grabim ritk več razgaljenih.

A se maščujem, ali naj raje se zmrdujem ?

Yet I am afraid

2008-01-08T09:50:00.001-08:00

I am a Man, I fear no One, No Single Soul, but Mine.

A dream of sons

2008-01-08T09:49:00.002-08:00

I kneel down in front of You to please...
Again fear of losing is my crime.

I only seek redemption

2008-01-08T09:49:00.001-08:00

Waiting is losing meaning to be.
What does it meanto be free ?
To be free from disease

that is slowly eating me.

I can't take her back

2008-01-08T09:46:00.000-08:00

Smell obtains flavor
remains
Domain of lover
foreigner's taste
will stay on forever.

If it happens...
If she goes...
you'll have to stay.
To sustain tearings of heart,
torments of soul,
agony of leaving,
Frustration of questions,
full of tears,
curse of answersfrom depths of mind.
Pain and seduction,
without introduction.
Masturbation without Penetration.

Če si, te ni

2007-12-04T05:07:00.001-08:00

Če veš kdo sem,
a vem, kdo si ?
A veš, kdo sem,
če vem, kdo si ?

Ne veš, kdo sem,
Ne vem, kje si.
Če veš, kje sem,
zakaj te ni ?

Če veš, da sem,
In vem, da si.
A veš kje sem ?
Če vem, kje si ?

Če veš, kdo sem,
In vem, kdo si.
A veš da
zame si le ti ?

...my lover

2007-12-04T05:04:00.001-08:00

I meet such a beautiful flower
seems she can stop time
now she's on the travel
to depths of my mind.

My tiny one-dream...

Oda bicikleti

2007-07-26T05:33:00.000-07:00

O ti bicikel moj
ki si me pelu po tem mestu
vrgel si me s sebe koj,
ko prvič pelu sem te dol po bregu..

Skupaj sva se vlekla za roge
natikala si ščitnike
Včasih bil si ti opraskan.
Ali pa jst polomljen in pošivan.

Spomni se, ko sva lovila zajca,
Predno si odšel od mene.
Upam da mu bo
iztaknu oko
Zlomu roko
In nasadu ga na jajca.
Tistmu k te je ukral od mene:
Ti za vedno boš prekleti !

26.7.2006 Je žalosten dan za me.
Če ga dobim, mu bo žal.

How do you think he feels ?

2007-07-24T10:01:00.000-07:00

Lonely man in silent room is whispering her song
still hears her singing,
"ain't no sunshine when she gone".
waiting is so long.

Full moon is appearing as afternoon is disapearing.
Storm is coming as his heart is one with mind.

He makes flashes for her lightning,
silence after thunder,
strong sounds for her owling wind.

Should he let her go,
because of too much love ?

Her freedom will be taken
his heart will be lost.

Reflection of myself: Whole world has a chance to dance. I need a drink to think. To forget the remaining time.

Svetloba ljubezni me je zaslepila

2007-07-08T14:54:00.000-07:00

Če odšla boš, odnesi še ljubezen mi s seboj
božansko očarljiva, da ne ostala bi z menoj.

Nočem, da mi luna s svojim sijem, bolečino v prsih skriva.
Nočem, da srce mi misli spet spreminja v solze.

Ako ukradeš mi ljubezen, meni, ki vsako jutro pravim ti,
da ljubim te...

Potem izčrpan, brez zdravila bi zbolel,
od hrepenenja
mi razum usode nikdar ne bi sprejel.

Utrujen od ljubezni slepih,
nosil bi me tok utvar.
večno zmeden taval,
tonil v brezna starih slav,
zaman iskal modrost pozabe.

Takrat ostane mi
kot se mi zdi,
samo še sij notranji,
da me razsvetli.

... nazaj.

2007-06-14T10:24:00.000-07:00

Rad bi se spominjal
kako si te ob sebi želim
in kaj vse bi storil,
da zate bil bi nenadomestijiv.

Zate bi se umoril,
samo da b'te nazaj dobil.

kaj čutiš, ko gola ob meni ležiš
kaj misliš, ko od užitkov mižiš.
ko te pritiskam, žariš.
Ko me ni, zaradi tega trpiš ?

Za koga vse sem se boril in se še boril bi...

Slutnja

2007-06-03T14:32:00.000-07:00

Zapleši z mano
deklica prikupna
znova me zavedi
pokaži mi svoj sladki greh.

Zadrži mi roko
deklica vesela
nikoli ne izpusti.
nameni mi nasmeh.

Z ustnic pil bi,
te okušal,
sokove sreče
naselil ti v telo.

Sedaj
Gorim kot angel,
rojen kot hudič.
Brez kril,
brez tebe.

There is no pride in living, without knowing why

2007-05-21T23:10:00.000-07:00

We are fathers of the sea,
mighty,
We filled the ocean
by shedding salty tears.
For others.

We are mothers of the earth.
Beautiful,
taking care
growing old.
giving love.

We are brothers, sister of a wind,
breathing,
waiting hours
for our final gasp.
to take forever.

We are children of the sun,
exquisite, tiny parts that shine.
fastest ray of light.
infinite.

Vse najboljše

2007-05-21T23:04:00.000-07:00

Ko se za trenutek ustavim,
se kanček sreče
v del svetlobe spremeni.
To sem jaz. To si ti.
Ko čas se
v meni, zate ustavi,
se del svetlobe znova,
v meni, zate spet rodi.
Ta del svetlobe si v meni ti.
Ta del si zame ti.

So little time, so much to do

2007-05-08T01:26:00.000-07:00

Cool down, slow down
are you crazy ?
where do you find the energy
You will burn out.
Things can wait,
a day has only so many hours.

You will just get old,
or maybe you'll leave on halfway.
think about what's waiting for you.

You can rest.
You are doing fine.
The life you lead
is too stressful.
No one can see when they are right.

Then there is passion,
There is your pride,
There are your dreams,
not all will come true.

Shut down the phone,
Disappear for a while,
think about what's waiting for you.

A quiet hill,
an endless ocean,
curly river.
bright blue sky,
fresh bed,
ashes,
Smile.

All the things you do

2007-04-26T06:56:00.000-07:00

Think fully of all the things you do,
Tommorow you might be here,
but your dreams might be gone.

Forgoten,
Taken,
Stolen,
Lost.

Sold out.
To the devil in disguise.
To the person of the night.
You'll be held responsible,
of all the things you'll do.
Your innocence won't help.
and thrust won't save you.

Of all the things you'll do,
only you can save you.

Poor soul salvation or someone's redemption

2007-03-23T02:03:00.000-07:00

As ice is melting in the stream
I changed
Life was brighter, It was good to be.
sadness is darker changing bits of me.
I used to be a better man
I used to understand.
Now something is wrong,
everything feels like history.

Take my pleasure, I'll give you my pain.
I'll steal your desire just to ease my mind.
I'll give you something someone gave to me.
Cause i don't believe in you and me.
No time to shed your tears for me,
love will get you finally.

I'll break your heart,
you can't help me.
i told you from the start:
Don't you trust me!

Intentional Wish

2007-02-21T03:38:00.000-08:00

What does it feel like
To experience serenity of life
To breath for short time
What is it like to be
free from the future.
free from the past ?
Imagine ...
Tommorow,
Beauty of the world,
Hope,
Another day,
Joy,
That will stay with you
Forever.

(hold on my friends, it's getting better and better with time)

Two days after

2007-01-30T05:22:00.000-08:00

I don't know why I even went out with her
then she looked pretty
now she's ugly as hell
a chance of love maybe?
she looked like a woman then
now she acts like her man
always last in the bar
thoughts went too far.

...because i was not being myself...

D for destiny

2007-01-08T13:48:00.000-08:00

G for glory.
A for recognition,
some form of revelation
of living and unliving things
exchanging essence just to serve,
that should be if possible,
purpose for living.
I saw death,
rising from the ground,
towards sun,
a present for my friend,
to one i had,
remain
in my mind.

Yet it had to happen,
to loose everything.
By theory,
that we care about.

Piano Man

2007-01-03T07:25:00.000-08:00

...
And the waitress is practicing politics
As the businessmen slowly get stoned
Yes, they're sharing a drink they call loneliness
But its better than drinkin alone

Sing us a song, you're the piano man
Sing us a song tonight
Well, we're all in the mood for a melody
And you've got us feelin alright.
...
Billy Joel

Et Nos enfants sont perdus

2006-11-30T01:14:00.000-08:00

We people are memorials of an age.
Remember: we people are a story !

Listen to my advice:
When you close your eyes, see a dancer in your head,
When there should be silence, sing music instead.

Do as i tell you, not as i do.
My heart is Cold as Ice,
My body is frozen,
No one is chosen.
This is not what I want you to want.

Give me a reason to put up this fight.

Sick inside my soul
Hear my lonely cries,
Deep inside my body
poison fills my eyes.

Who will dig grave
for my motionless corpse.
Who will give love
to my innocent child ?

As stolen goods And broken swords,
we bend,
we stretch,
we scream,
we lie.
As midnight mist And fallen leafs,
we go,
we cry,
we fall,
we die.

As all pale faces in all their cases,
always look for love in all the wrong places.

I drink cold wine,
When it comes To Forget
I look at the farthest stars,
When it comes To Regret
I breath without reason,
When I can't see your silhuette.

Will I ever understand the insanity,
Between love I give And love that I take.
Will I ever apprehend the profanity
Between love that I lost and love I had.

Will I ever be the product of eternity,
And when will I become just solar dust,
lost,
without memory ?

Slaughtered bodies lay around

2006-11-22T04:13:00.000-08:00

Shockwave traveling with speed of sound,
Sudden slowdown on the road,
Pale faces on the pavement,
Standing
Brothers workers People
running.
Wifes and Women
screaming.
Desperate mother with sisters,
crying.
Boys, girls,
daughters and sons.

Everyone witnesses
Sadness,
For Unknown people are dying,
Today is day of
Mourning, Grief and Death.

Can somebody please tell me why,
pleasant kind and curious nation
has to suffer because of potent global domination ?

One Last Word

2006-11-02T05:22:00.000-08:00

All this time, searching for miss right
but she keeps avoiding me,
seems like sorrow is my only company.

It disolves me from inside,
bringing me down,
no hussle,
no struggle,
no hate,
no love.
no nothing but pain.

She's not there for you,
she does not care for you,
And when you leave for another date,
You know, it's not what you want and what you need.

My mind is filled with visions from the day we meet
Now is full of questionable memory,
i can not reset.

I wish I could hold you,
when i'm lonely,
I wish I could call you.
and tell you:
goodbye.

Pridi

2006-10-26T17:29:00.000-07:00

Pridi v moj svet,
pridi v mojo misel,
izkažem ti ljubezen,
pokažem najin smisel.

pridi in prisluhni,
nasmehni se, zame
ko pojem, zate.

pokazal svobodo ljubezni,
izpustil te nikdar več ne bom.

Ko sem bil mlad,
verjel sem v gozd,
zelen, mogočen in zdrav.
Neskončen.

2006-10-22T02:16:00.000-07:00

...
all the love gone bad, turned my world to black
tattooed all i see, all that i am, all i'll ever be...
i know someday you'll have a beautiful life, i know you'll be a star
in somebody else's sky, but why
why, why can't it be, why can't it be mine?

Pearl Jam, Black

Izgubljen spomin njenih pogledov

2006-10-15T10:30:00.000-07:00

Sprva z mano zadovoljstvo si iskala,
da bi malo se igrala,
skupaj sva se hihitala,
tiho se spogledovala,
večkrat se do raja odpeljala.

V meni se je zaiskrilo,
kri v meni pospešilo,
znova srce mi zabilo,
tebi meni njemu...
življenje obrnilo.

Ob spominu nate,
da srce drug ti je vzel,
kanček mene bo trpel,
ljubezni tvoji nikdar več ne bo verjel.

A v meni plamen zate vedno bo gorel,
vedno rad te bom objel,
ob glasu tvojem bom drhtel,
po tvojem smehu hrepenel.

Unused to a dream

2006-10-03T14:42:00.000-07:00

now i wake up with my broken heart
waking up is hardest part
falling on my knees
catching breath
wondering
was she standing beside me ?
giving up is hard
looking with my crying eye
then all at once you say goodbye
wondering
would you stay, would you wake with me ?
but she can't.

We meet at an interesting time,
she let me in her garden,
is it my crime,
to reverse the time,
just to get back,
when we started ?
But I can't.
I can't.
I can't.
I can't.

The story is lost,
don't let it happen, again.

Have you seen me lately ?

2006-09-29T17:33:00.000-07:00

No?
So you can't see,
What's happening,
So you can't know,
what you have done to me ?

oh, no,
please stop.
It hurts
so much,
so deep inside.

Anyway
Why did you let me so close ?
To be a pawn with you
or to be your slave without.

Please, get out of my head in the morning.
And stay away from my heart.

Relaxation

2006-09-29T17:23:00.000-07:00

Damn,
I need an ocean,
to swim across,
to find the potion.

I need a call,
I need to know.
where to get some information,
how to catch some inspiration.

2006-09-26T17:14:00.000-07:00

If real love, would wait for fourteen days,
would it be a love or comitment ?

Love doesn't wait,
even if living in next building.
It is or no ?
or is or is ?
arh argh
cry for help.

Crazy love of another man

2006-09-26T16:04:00.000-07:00

I suffer
for a woman I did not hear,
I suffer
she was stolen from me by another man,
I suffer
for me, because I lost perception
I suffer
for her, now she hates me
I suffer
for me
I...I...I...I
she...she...she...she...
woman,
friend,
gone...
in bureaucracy.

Should I tell her what is happening to me
now when she's not riding with me ?

Two dozen days,
two broken hearts,
I feel like forgotten guy.

yet I would like to tell her
what is on my mind.
My friend,
will you tell me ?

Can I call you,
to tell you ?
will you call me,
to tell me ?

Will we make the same mistake,
we made in love...
oh god, I hate this game.

It rather pathetic,
she despises me now,
for what I am,
for what I didn't do

We could imagine better...

Lost

2006-09-25T04:32:00.000-07:00

it burns,
it hurts,
it's so annoying.
i lost someone.
now i am crying.

I saw you coming

2006-09-25T03:54:00.000-07:00

So how does it feel when you start to ask yourself is it realy you, or is it just your body.
So is it me or someone else that disturbed our piece ?

There is no love for me,
there was yesterday,
but not today.
I feel powerlessness.
Voidness.
Emptiness.
Even smell is gone.
And feelings ?
There are none.
Sail in change,
when change is good.
Don't look back,
when love is gone.

It hurts me, what i didn't tell.
It burns me, what i didn't do.

I am no saint, i saw it coming,
Just you don't know, what i've been doing.

Variety of things you do
Attracts the people, just like you,
Love is what you gave,
Eternal gracefulness i wish for you.

So live long and prosper, kind soul mate.
I hope you had a damn good date.

This poem is for my good grilfriend, for the upcoming time. Now when our paths have gone in separate ways, and we stoped being lovers, i would like to thank her for all her kindness and smiles, for her elepahant mind and i hope she will cook me some good lunch.
I do deserve one ! (i think)

The essence

2006-08-24T02:14:00.000-07:00

Our essence is the core of our salvation.

Coast for two so far away

2006-07-31T07:35:00.000-07:00

Wait, you'll see,
a piece of earth,
you've never seen.
A part of coast
you've never been.
Can swim,
You can be naked,
ultra keen.
relaxed...
Could read,
In the shadow of a tree.
just wait and walk with me.

hide? from rain or sight

Beautiful day

2006-07-12T06:19:00.000-07:00

Sun is on my face
Smile is on my lips
calm and motionless,
I am becoming restless.
You are on my mind
over, all the time.
Why can't I enjoy,
cool, fresh breeze,
while touching you ?

When I'm lonely

2006-06-14T07:26:00.000-07:00

Sometimes I remember
what I've lost
those smiles, the joy,
those moments, that day,
rewinding time,
flashing in my mind.

Please come to me.
My soul, my son, my father...
smile, for your mother.
anytime.

Memories are only mine.
blending into void,
as universal crime.

Today,
I'm not going,
I'll stay and suffer,
I'll weep and cry.
then vanish in a fear.
or should I go and disappear ?
in high speed crash...
might be better feeling,
faster than this living;

And when my sun is set,
you'll know I am gone.
Go, dance for me,
enjoy,
you'll see...
me,
waiting for you,
smiling,
eyes shining,
riding with you
exploring heaven.

Light the candle

2006-04-25T23:10:00.000-07:00

There is no tommorow
for me, only
light at the end of the tunnel
closing in,
coming straight at me.

There was no today...
at least not yesterday.

Tell me ...

2006-04-25T23:08:00.000-07:00

Now that we found love what do we wanna do with it ?
and how much difference does it really make to leave your life and start a new ?

What makes us stronger,
why do we need to be experienced with such a fee ?
is there no other way,
but fight through what should be beautiful,
look at my hands, you see ?
there's no tatoos,
no debts,
no lies,
no remarks,
no remorse,
for things that come,
and someday i'll be free,
again,
from you, your lies, your misery,
The one you love, it' won't be me.
Will come, and
Do to you,
what you did to me.

You can't hear my woman moan

2006-04-10T13:17:00.000-07:00

I left my city
without self pity
i start to roam,
searching for my tiger lily.

I found someone, wrong,
she found another,
then someone to get along,
boy, she loved another,
then, a soul, but not a mate,
then, a beauty, without a taste,
then a girl without the name,
then a woman, mother, with her claim,
then a school girl and no faith.
then a jewel, that i lost,
then a lady, she went back,
then a missy with a grilfriend,
and Mary with a child,
child without the father,
father without a child.

(Mary kicked the boyfriend,
boyfriend kicked me.
I left Mary,
no one's beating me.) "Not realy true, there was no boyfriend and no kicking, it's here just for the sake of a joke"

i never tell

2006-03-26T14:36:00.000-08:00

i know
to do it
i don't know why
i see the things
that make me cry
i know i should to
stay away
but things are there
were people are.
i feel them
in my frozen heart.
i never tell
the fortune
i never see the way
the way you wanna see it,
in another, different day.

the card of blackness
there's corpse and eye

propose

2006-03-26T14:27:00.000-08:00

i am sad,
sometimes i'm bad,
but things i wanna
say
is never,
ever,
lose your hope.

what made me from the cloud

2006-03-13T16:14:00.000-08:00

and yet we're made from
something
and what we are
we are from
nothing
we are,
i am,
you are
a rock,
what i'm
i am,
i am
a rock,
and you,
you are
a thing
nor luck (and fuck) (or crack)
together
dust
from
end
to
start.
what
will,
will
keep
us,
us
appart,
the
thing there is
is thing appart,
there is
i am
you are
the thing
the thing
i love
from end
to start.

Thank god for snow

2006-03-05T10:01:00.000-08:00

i was Darth
You were on fire
danced then
triped the wire
and talked
a lot.

Next day
we could not wait
we had a dinner,
what a date.
then there was snow,
nice body,
nice soul.
you did not come
we go again ?
you stayed
i snore.

Passing of time

2006-03-05T09:35:00.000-08:00

Everything starts
with innocence
then evolves
in something,
good or bad,
in love or hate,
and time passes ...

You had love and smile,
now look back in passed time
what you see
is what you've missed
what you should,
and what you didn't do,
when time was right
your thought was wrong.

you missed so much
what life has offered,
does it stop ?
was it enough ?
is feeling empty,
will you not forget,
that simple life as time is passing,
and ends one day ?

your sons will stay...
do they know about your life?
about mistakes you made
of things you miss
what to do,
and how to live ?
when time is passing,
as we go and as we speak
tell them what you know,
tell them what you think.

what a coincidence

2006-02-20T07:30:00.000-08:00

me and you were
drinking at the bar
beers and wine
caring for no one,
is this what you wished for
is this what you need me for ?

i admired your smile,
we danced till the morning came

what i wanted from you,
was what you wanted from me,
question was simple:
your place or mine ?
the blow job was great,
yet i have seen better,
getting laid was great.
yet i have been better,

sorry i did not wait for you,
i was selfish, i came in you.

Once

2006-01-25T02:44:00.000-08:00

Do you remeber
the days,
the nights,
when we were near,
with wet skin,
and salty taste,
Warn and safe,
inside of you,
without a fear,
on top of me, you were.

Where were our failures

2005-11-12T11:22:00.000-08:00

Everyone left and we all were lonely.
Who left first and why, is not a question.
and yes, i forgive you.
But forgive you what?

Our deeds, that won't be forgoten,
dark as they are, forever,
memories fade and time, my friend,
is different now.

I forgive you, But forgive you what?
it's not important if you go,
you know,
don't care about,
just wanna life for my child.
to be joyful, truthful, wild.

Remember The Band

2005-11-12T10:59:00.000-08:00

So long since we've been together,
so long since we've been happy,
being in a marriage with three.

Sometimes i remember,
what we were doing,
what we were talking,
what we were singing.

Sometimes i remember,
what i don't recall,
at all.

Why weren't we dancing ?
like people do.

http://www.virtualpuppet.org/maze/

You'll pay for all

2005-10-23T07:07:00.000-07:00

by Dane Zajc
Dedicated to the memory of Dane Zajc, the great Slovenian Poet. Translated by Ted's fortune files.

You'll pay for all.
Most You'll pay for own birth.
A flock of hideous birds will follow you
through life,
At time of peace
and at time of unrest
It will fall upon your chest,
Wanting payment
and you'll give and give.
But salvation never comes.
There is no forgiveness.
there is no salvation for a man.
Inside you have no value, to pay for.
And you are the payment.

Za vse boš plačal.
Največ boš plačal za svoje rojstvo.
Jata zasmehljivih ptic te bo zasledovala
skozi življenje.
Ob uri miru
in ob uri nemira
se bo spuščala na tvoje prsi.
Terjala bo plačilo
in ti boš dajal in dajal.
Ampak odrešitve ne bo nikoli.
Ker ni nikjer odpuščanja.
Nikjer ni odrešitve za človeka.
V sebi nimaš vrednosti, s katero bi plačal.
In sam si plačilo za vse.

Farewell

2005-10-20T01:46:00.000-07:00

Look father,
or am i sentimental,
i've done what you did,
and it does not feel right.

Look again,
Persons that i care for,
are they lost ?
even youngest ?
that i love the most..

So my dearest,
with permission,
I'll leave,
with a hope,
once more,
to meet,
in a different world.

I Error

2005-10-20T01:45:00.000-07:00

Disappear,
Without praying
Die.
Without saying
Goodbye,

My meaning is lost,
I have no power to continue in this configuration,
I am dissolving in separation,

Deepest secrets are in shadows,
buried in a heart,
My love long gone… aaaaa
the key is stuck, is this luck ?

I am not willing to continue in this situation
No operation
No operation

OK. OK.
am i Selling my soul ?
cancel, ignore.

Seeking salvation.
0 matches,
what now, masturbation?

Shut me down.
Now.

Black Star

2005-10-20T01:40:00.000-07:00

This star won't shine for you and me,
Won’t light eternity,
Won’t glow to impress,
Nor burn to express:
“I’m being here”

Grateful spirit
Heartbreaking off.

It’s not your fault,
And neither mine,
A moment later,
Would be fine.

Those blue eyes we’ll never see
I hear laughter… Haunting me.

A tiny hope to make again
Younger, maybe different friend,
So little star won’t be alone,
To shine au pair, forever more

Dark spot’s veiled behind,
Outshined by the glowing sun,
Lost forever is no one.

Shine for someone else now star,
Bye, goodbye…Goodbye for now.