When I'm lonely

Sometimes I remember
what I've lost
those smiles, the joy,
those moments, that day,
rewinding time,
flashing in my mind.

Please come to me.
My soul, my son, my father...
smile, for your mother.
anytime.

Memories are only mine.
blending into void,
as universal crime.

Today,
I'm not going,
I'll stay and suffer,
I'll weep and cry.
then vanish in a fear.
or should I go and disappear ?
in high speed crash...
might be better feeling,
faster than this living;

And when my sun is set,
you'll know I am gone.
Go, dance for me,
enjoy,
you'll see...
me,
waiting for you,
smiling,
eyes shining,
riding with you
exploring heaven.